So I could take this off FB. ~ What was I thinking?!

Alot of you know last Feb., I got in contact with my 18 yr. old half-brother. I never had my biological Dad in my life without it being a mess. The only memories I have of him, are definately not good ones. My brother asked if he could tell Larry about me, and my dumb ass said okay, after a week of thinking about it. Now, Larry, Danny & Larrys girlfriend are coming to visit. I received an email yesterday from Lori (the girlfriend), and panic set in. Apparently my Aunt Sandy, Uncle Joff & cousin Lizzie are coming in from MO. & want to see Drake & I...So do my uncle Gerald & Aunt Linda. I am completely overwhelmed now, and frankly, getting pissed about the whole situation. All these people dropped me out of their lives YEARS ago & now they want to see us?! Larry calls me his DAUGHTER??! Ugh. I don't know that I want them in Drakes life. I have enjoyed getting to know my brother, but I opened a whole different can of worms when I gave the okay for him to tell our "father". Just needed to vent, any thoughts on this are welcome.

First Blog is not a happy one.

As you may have figured out, my husband, Shawn, works ALOT. In the last 4 months, he has been gone almost two. Two trips to Taiwan, and most recently Scotland, Sweden, & Amsterdam.
Well, today, our son, Drake, just bursts into tears. Outta nowhere. I ask what's wrong and between crying so hard, he told me he just misses his Dad. I wanted to cry. Shawn & I had decided to try to work things out for Drake. I called Shawn so Drake could talk to him. Then I talked to Shawn. He got totally pissed when I suggested he take maybe Friday or Monday off to spend with D. He thinks that as long as he is in the room with D, that that is spending time. I'll let you in on a secret...Shawn drinks - ALOT. He also chomps lortab like candy. I get disgusted, when Drake is saying "Dad...Hey, Dad...' , and Shawn is passed out.
I think we have basically become roommates, rather than a married couple. I just don't want Drake to grow up with no memories of Shawn doing things that dads are supposed to do with their children.
Sorry chicas -- I had to get it out. Love to all!